I GOT TAGGED!!!!!!!

haha..... i got tagged by YVONNE AKA YIFIE!!!!!!! How could she do that to me????? Actually i'm glad she did!!!!! hahahaha..... OK... Here goes....

5 THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG.......

1. My lovely handphone which was a gift from my dad for my birthday last year.....
2. My wallet that i bought in Sunway Pyramid with Carrie, Kalai and Bak......
3. My lipstick and compact powder which my mom insist that every girl has to have it in their bag.......
4. One cents coins that i chuck inside my bag every time i come out of KFC or MCDONALD'S...
5. And........ TISSUE!!!!! U HAVE TO HAVE TISSUE!!!!!!!

5 THINGS FOUND INSIDE YOUR PURSE/WALLET.....

1. My cash that seems to disappear every time i step out of a shopping mall..hmmmm.....
2. My IC which i will be in jail if i don have it with me.... haha.... BANGLA KA????
3. My LICENSE which i forget to take sometimes due to memory dysfunction. Lucky police never stop at that time......
4. A god picture that my mom kept for safety purposes..... MAY GOD BE WITH U......
5. hmmmm..... I think got lots of receipt to remind me that most probably i'm broke.... haih..

5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM..........

1. MY LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!
2. My WORLD'S MOST COMFORTABLE BED!!!!!
3. My CD player.....
4. My cloths that is all over the place that my mom faints every time she opens the door.... haha......
5. The balcony!!! I'm lucky that my room comes with the balcony. Most of my time is spent there day dreaming and watching the rain..........

5 THINGS YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO.....

1. I always wanted to go BUNGEE JUMPING!!!!! WEEEEEE!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!! ( i'm scared of height though! )
2. Meet JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE!!!!!! I'm in love with him.....
3. Go camping in the woods with Kalai and the gang.....
4. BACKPACK AROUND THE WORLD!!!!! THE ULTIMATE DREAM!!!!!
5. Join the Doctors Without Borders.......

5 THINGS U R CURRENTLY INTO........

1. my LAPTOP!!!!
2. Blogging thanks to miss blog, YVONNE!!!!
3. Partying with my cousins.....
4. Shopping for cloths and shoes.... When am i not into that..... Going bankrupt.....haha.....
5. Watching PRISON BREAK!!!!!! It is so interesting that i didn't even miss 1 episode....

5 PEOPLE U WILL TAG....

1. Sharmini!!!!!! U'r it.... haha....
2. Bak!!!!!! HAHAHAHA......
3. Tommy......
4. ASH....
5. Last but not least miss....... KALAI!!!!!! GOTCHA!!!!!

LOOOOOOONG DAY........

Haih.......

Today was a long day. Went to the Indonesian Embassy to seat for entrance exam.....

IT WAS TOUGH LA!!!!!!! It's like doing STPM all over again. Haih....... Well, wait and see what happens next.

But tomorrow IS A NEW DAY!!!!!!! I'm so excited because i'm going to SHOP TILL I DROP with my best friend in the whole wide world, KALAISELVI.....

We are going for JUSCO sales in Maluri.... Both of us have been saving up for this sale.... At last!!!!! GOING TO FINISH UP ALL THE MONEY........

Maybe will go and visit YVONNE... ASK her to make some drinks for us..... She made an excellent HOT CHOCOLATE!!!!!!



kalai and me when we went to visit YIFIE...

Friends...

WHAT DOES FRIENDS MEAN TO YOU?
Try asking this question to yourself and think about the answers u come up with......

All the people that i met and fortunate enough to make them as my friend played a major role in my quest of building my personality. In other words, they helped me to create the identity that i have now.

But through out the journey of my life i lost some of my friends because of my own doings. There were certain people that i had hurt their feelings. They were so hurt that they developed a hatred towards me. I regret for my action. I wish i was more patient. I wish i had more tolerance.

WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU WILL MAKE YOU STRONGER.....
That's what happened to me. I realised that there is no use in crying over spilled milk. I decided that i will never take any of my friends for granted. I still hold on to that decision until this day. I learned to treat every 1 of my friend with grave respect and realised that's its OK to go extra mile to help them out.

THEY thought the same as well. To my surprise they too went extra mile to help me. THIS IS HOW THE WORLD WORKS!!!! From then onwards friends means a lot to me. They are part of mt life and journey of self discovery. In the process i met some of the BEST PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT GUIDED ME WITH LOVE AND CARE.

I still do regret for loosing all the friends but if i didn't loose them I WOULDN'T FOUND ALL THIS PEOPLE WHO R CURRENTLY IN MY LIFE!! I wish to say sorry to those i might have hurt and hope that i can be part of their lives.

TO ALL MY FRIENDS OUT THERE RIGHT NOW, THANK YOU FOR TAKING ME IN YOUR LIFE AND SHOWING ME THE WORLD DOES CARE. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR CARE AND HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIP WILL BE FOREVER!!!

We are just ordinary people.......

This is my all time favorite song.... It helps me to realise that sometimes it's ok to make mistakes. We are just ordinary people. Sometime we will succeed and sometime we will crash and burn.... But it doesn't matter, as long as we try our level best in anything that we do....
Hope it will inspire you too....

John Legend Ordinary People Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Girl im in love with you

This ain't the honeymoon

Past the infatuation phase

Right in the thick of love

At times we get sick of love

It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved

And you made your mistakes

And we both still got room left to grow

And though love sometimes hurts

I still put you first

And we'll make this thing work

But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go'cause we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain't a movie no

No fairy tale conclusion ya'll

It gets more confusing everyday

Sometimes it's heaven sent

Then we head back to hell again

We kiss and we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call

We rise and we fall

And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances

We take second chances

Though it's not a fantasy

I Still want you to stay

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go'cause we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 3]

Take it slow

Maybe we'll live and learn

Maybe we'll crash and burn

Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave, maybe you'll return

Maybe another fight

,Maybe we won't survive

But maybe we'll grow

We never know baby youuuu and I

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

(hey)'cause we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

(Heyyy)

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go'cause we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slowtake it sloww

take it slow this time we'll take it slowtake

WHAT'S WRONG BEING SINGLE????

That's my question? What's wrong with staying single? I mean wherever i go I'm constantly served with teenagers walking hand in hand every where.... OK... I understand if you are saying that you met the right person and you are in love and all..

But I'm talking about when the so called 'LOVE' wears off and reality checks in. Then, the break up comes and all hell breaks loose.....You decide to break up when thing gets to hard to handle and you cant feel the chemistry anymore... Few weeks later you holding hands with someone else.. I mean why not give yourself sometime and enjoy the new found freedom?

I asked this question to my friend and she said that it is very lonely without a man by your side... Oh, come on!!! You were not born with your boyfriend stuck to your hand!!! If you are 20, than you spent 3/4 of your life alone without a boyfriend!!!! How did you live your life then???

I feel its unfair to jump into a relationship just because you are lonely. What you got to offer your partner is just an empty space that you are hoping that he/she can fill it for you.... Is it fair if you partner wants you to fill his loneliness only?... For me, in a relationship, i want to share everything... happiness, sadness, laughter, tears, everything!!!!

I like the fact of staying single... You can go wherever you want, anytime you want. Don't need to tell anybody or even feel guilty that you are having fun even though the special someone is not with you. AND the best part is that you can discover yourself and learn to be YOURSELF!!!! You DON'T NEED TO CHANGE FOR ANYONE! You are who you are!!!

STAYING SINGLE ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!

My FrIEnDs.....

" What you miss the most from school?", my cousin asked me. I didn't need to think twice to answer. I definitely miss my friends. I loved school alot... I can see some of you rolling your eyes but i did love school alot. I always looked forward to go, mainly because i know I'll see all my friends.

First thing I'll pick up Viwashine from her place. I'll get a warm good morning. She'll be with her book that will remind me of my aim at that time. Viwa's always punctual. I make sure to get to her place on time.

Then we will go to Kalai's place. Well, we do have to wait awhile sometimes.... You know Kalai... Not a big fan in going to school. I understood that and normally i dint really mind waiting. I respect her for who she is and except her in a whole... including her flaws.....

The next stop will be school. When we reach school I'll park next 2 Bak and Carrie. I will wish both of them from the car and catch up with things that happened the previous day. Sometimes Carrie's aunt will send delicious cakes and food. Now , that, i really look forward to... haha...

Normally we will stay in the car and wait until 7.20 am. Then we will leave to the TAMEK. There, Sharmini and Ashweni will be chatting away waiting for us. Then there will be 1 big group chatting loudly until Mrs.Cheng needs to step in. Hehe.... We were naughty!!!!

Tommy will be standing behind me. We will say hi and fill in with each other on any important things. Then, the classroom.......

I sit in between Sharu and Tommy. I love disturbing both of them. Tommy has a weak point at his waist and i love pocking him there. He will react with a jump... Hahaha... I like disturb sharu by taking her pictures. She dont like taking pictures......

David Cheah Chi Yee was my husband. Haha... So called husband. It was a joke that circulated for no apparent reason. Hmmmm..... Well, i liked disturbing him anyway.... He is a really wise person that i really respected. So, more reason to disturb him....

Then there was THE ONE AND ONLY CHEE GUAN!!! i LOVE TO DISTURB HIM THE MOST. He was really cool to talk to and fool around with.... He was really helpful and BELIEVE IT OR NOT, HE DOES GOSSIP WITH US......

I really enjoyed school a lot. It was a place i knew i will never be alone. I was surrounded with friends who cared about me. FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE SCHOOL WILL ALWAYS BE A SPECIAL PLACE FOR ME.....

When The First Journey in Life is DEATH..

Today is the official New Year for the Indians. Today, i woke up thinking that i have to make some changes in my life before starting fresh. I know it sounds weird to star fresh in April but, hey, it's still a start rite? OK... I know what I'm supposed to do but easier said than done.....

My journey in life have been very......ummmm..... I guess i can say adventurous. I started the year with my best friend's first year death anniversary. He passed away last year on 27Th January. Now, this was the change that i was talking about. Since his death, i could not talk about him to anyone. I found it extremely annoying when people asked me about him.

Then, today morning i decided it's time to let go. That's what my good friend said. If u love someone, the best way to show it is by letting them go. So, I'm trying to let go.

I knew Jay since i was 10. We were best friend but worst enemy. We compete for everything. We were rivals when it comes to competition but best friends when it came to sticking up for each other. We knew the relationship we had was special but then again when you are in primary school those things doesn't really strike that much.

We left primary school to separate secondary school. We lost contact once i entered SAB. We were busy with our own life. Trying our level best in a world that was really challenging. It was hard for me as i had a hard time trusting anyone in my life. All the betrayals that was presented to me, my heart refused to except those who were actually cared about me.

Me and Jay kept in touch and he became the person i cry to. He always told me this line that was really annoying. "Look at the bright side". He was always positive. He knew exactly who he was.

We lost touch for sometime as i got busy for SPM. Then, end of 2005 i received the call. The call that i sometime selfishly hoped i didn't answer it at all. It was from my primary school teacher calling to tell me that Jay was admitted. What is the first thing that you do when you find out that your best friend is sick in hospital and asking to see you?

After that day, my journey in life took a different turn. I spent each and every moment that i had with him. We became close, like we used too. He said things that made feel like a small girl. I was happy. Really happy for the first time. But his health continued to deteriorate. One stage he couldn't walk anymore. I used lie down on the hospital bed with him. We spend most of our time talking and planning our future together.

He couldn't talk properly anymore. He can't keep his food down either. I saw every single moment as his life was sucked out of him. Then again, whenever I'm there, he will give me a smile that will warm my heart.

Two days before he passed away i saw him. We talked for longer than usual. Surprisingly, the nurses didn't chase me away. We said things to each other that i will take it to the grave with me.

One day before, i called his hand phone but no one answered. He was in coma.

27th JANUARY 2006. It was a Friday. I was in my chemistry tuition class when i got the call. I thought it was him. Excitedly i ran outside. I answered. It was not him. It was his mother weeping in the phone.

According to Hindu ritual, a person cant be buried on Friday. I went to his house on Friday to 'visit' him. I stood at the entrance. I was really scared. I didn't want to go. I wanted to leave. The mother came running outside. She called me in. THERE HE WAS.

Lying there motionless.......

I couldn't get myself to go to his funeral the next day. How are you supposed to see the person that you love to be put into a coffin and taken away?

The first life changing experience in my journey.........