It's really cold here......

Hello everybody!!!!!!! It's my second week in Indonesia but still haven't started any orientation classes!!............ Haih......

Anyway, i'm having fun walking around Malang town and looking like a complete freak cause everybody keep staring at me!!!! I guess they never seen an Indian like me before. You know....... The hot and gorgeous type......... Haha.......

It gets really cold here at night!! I'm wearing socks and jacket at night which i never....... My father sent my laptop d!!!!! Haha..... Blogging with my laptop la..... But its DAMN boring now cause we have to wait for the other students to arrive as well........

Right now i'm in my Ibu asuh @ ibu angkat's house with three other girls.... The first 1 is KOMALA...... Small, petite girl but looks can be really deceiving!!!!!!!
Then there is SARAH....... Sarah and me have many things in common including checking out all the guys and eliminating the ugly ones............
Last but not least is the HOT NAIFAH...... Man, she is hot........... Then again looks still can be deceiving............

OK!!!! I got to go.... I'll update u guys later la. Maybe i'll insert some pictures. Will u give u an idea of what i'm blogging about.........

I'm in INDONESIA!!!!!!!

Hello everybody!!!! I'm in Indonesia now...... Man, my perception of this country completely changed la!!!! Its not what i expected. Even though Malang town is small its really nice and have all the facility!!! I'm in CC now which is in the Campus!!!! Then, i went shopping at their shopping mall called MATOS @ MALANG TOWN SQUARE!!!! Huge shopping mall!!!!!! I watched Transformers at their theatre. By the way, THE MOVIE WAS REALLY GOOD!!!!!!

Now, I'm staying with ibu angkat who is super nice!!!!! Her house is really BIG!!!!!!!! My house mates r really good. But I'm missing home la!!!!!! Miss my mom and her cooking alot. Miss Indian Food alot!!!!!! I wanna eat idli and tosai!!!! Its OK!! I'm in 1 of the prestigious uni in Indonesia so I'm proud to be here.....

OK!!!!! I have to go...... That's all the time i have. Till next time....... CIAO!!!!!!!!!

Bye Everybody!!!!!

Well, i'll be leaving in few hours time. Just wanted to do my last blog before i fly to indonesia!!!! I'm all packed and kept alL the things already!!! Had dinner with my family just now. Feeling really sad at the same time excited. Dunno what's installed for me!!


Good luck to everybody and take care of urselves!!!! BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLO EVERYBODY!!!!!!



SORRY for not posting for sooo long!!!!! Well i have been SUPER BUSY this past month!!!!!!

Haih.......... Started to say good bye to my friends and distant relatives........ I feel really sad but for some reason i can't cry!! Weird right???? Mom was like, " UR AUNTY IS CRYING AND U R SO RELAXED AND ASKING HER TO RELAX??????????????" hahahaha........ I could only laugh at her comment. I seriously told my aunty not to worry and I'll visit whenever i come down to Malaysia.......

I saw Carrie and Bak today. I said my good bye's to them. Just in case i won't see them before i leave. Man..........., it's starting to get me saying all this good bye's. I'll see Kalai soon and have the Pizza Hut lunch we always had. I love to have that lunch with her. We'll talk about everything while having our favourite Pizza!!! It gives us both clarity about life and where we are right now. I MISS HER ALOT!!!!

I'm going to watch a Tamil movie with my Mom!!! Shivaji The Boss!!!! I'm not really a big fan of Tamil movies as its always long and my butt will start to hurt!!! But this movie was rated five star and a MUST WATCH MOVIE!!!!

Most of my things are packed. Just left somethings like clothes that I'm still using and shoes!!! HAHA...... I'm taking 6 pairs of shoes!!!! I know...... That's alot!!!! But what to do??? I'm a Shoe-a-holic!!!!!! But i still have alot of things to do!!!!

I'm really going to miss Malaysian food!!! They say there is no Roti Canai or Nasi Lemak!!!! haih........ It's ok la!!! I WILL SURVIVE!!!!!!

I need to go!! Lots of things to do. But I'll keep on blogging until 30Th June!!! I'll be leaving on 1st July so it'll take me a while to get to know the place and adjust!!!!

Bye bye.............

What Hurts the Most?

I was online every single day but couldn't get myself to sit and update my blog. I was not really in a mood to do so. I'm really sad. My heart feels so heavy. Normally, at this time i'll break down and cry. But for some reason, this time, things are different. I can't cry. It's not like i don't want to cry but i just can't cry.

It's like my tears had dried up. I sat at my favourite balcony and was staring at the sky for soo long. I realised how alone i felt. I know i'm surrounded by family and great friends but i feel so lonely. I think i'm lonely because of my attitude of not wanting to add salt to a wound. I don't want people around me to feel the pain that i feel. I like to make people happy. I like to make them smile. Then again, sometimes i, myself forget to smile.

Ever felt like wanting to run away to some where far far away???? That's exactly what i feel. I want to run away to the fairy tale land that the story books tell. I want to run away to a land where a fairy god mother can change me to a beautiful princess........

My aunty told me that i'm only 19 and i should be enjoying life. I should be going out with boys and party until late night. Not sit at home and worry about things that i'm worrying about right now. But this is me. I can't simply pass the responsibility about my life to someone and fool around with other people!!!!!! It's my fucking life.......

I changed a lot compared to who i was before. I was told war in life can change even a stone hearted man. But the thing is i didn't change from a stone hearted person to someone who is sensitive about the surrounding. It's actually vice verse. I have became so much stronger. Mom said i'm so strong until i don't even realise the magnitude of my strength. She pointed the fact that people might be afraid of you because of your attitude of facing everything heads on.

Then again, i'm tired of changing myself for other people. I don't understand why people can't accept the real me but expect me to accept the real them. IS THIS WORLD THAT SELFISH?? WHY DO PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THEMSELVES ONLY???

I can't be angry at the world. But the main thing i have changed for the better. I like who i am now. OR DO I??? I don't know. I'll never know. At times i just wish someone will tell me what's going on and what i should do......... CAN YOU TELL ME?????

What Do You Do When You Have A Crush on Someone????

I HATE HAVING A CRUSH ON SOMEONE!!!!!

OK!!! That might be a bit extreme but i do find it hard when i have a crush on someone!!!! Those who are close to me knows that i'm a very poised person that don't really loose my cool that easily and i won't run out of things to say!!!!!!

But.......... When i'm around a person that i have a crush on, i seem to mutate into a very shy and quite person!!!!!! THAT IS RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!! KASTHURI BEING SHY???????? IT'S LIKE CHOCOLATE BEING GREEN!!!!!!!!

Haih........ Normally, i'll have so many things to say that i'll plan everything in my head. Then, i'll see the person's face and all i want to do is RUN TOWARDS THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION!!!!!

IS IT NORMAL TO BE LIKE THAT??? The last time i remember, i almost scared my crush out off his mind by talking to him VERY LOUDLY!!!!!! It's not like i planned to do it but i just TERTALKED like that!!!!!

It's official!!!!! I'm going to be THE WEIRDEST CRUSH IN THE UNIVERSE!!!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In a Past Life...

You Were: An Obese Assassin. Where You Lived: Australia. How You Died: In Childbirth.

Who Were You In a Past Life?